Archive for February, 2008

i’m afraid

Posted in Uncategorized on February 26, 2008 by kristylea

i think my greatest fear is of growing old. of reaching a point when all dignity and pride have passed me by and all thats left is a broken body for a failing mind. when highlights of my life are mere whispers in an endless storm. i’m afraid that i’ll forget why i want to live and that i’ll ache for the relief of death. i’m afraid of watching others around me die while i just wait and wonder if i will be the next one staring blankly from the obituary. i’m afraid of surviving while everyone i love has moved on and i’ll be all alone.

what kind of life is a life already lived?

you still love me when i’m ugly

Posted in Uncategorized on February 25, 2008 by kristylea

don’t you hate it when you don’t get a movie? and at the end of it, instead of lightbulbs coming on and flashing, you are in an abyss of darkness, thinking in broken sentences, all with the main thrust of ‘huh?’ 

yep, that was how i felt at the end of no country for old men. it pissed me off that i got it… till the end happened, then i was lost. fucking tommy lee jones. i can write an oscar winning best picture too. 5 pages of dialogue and fill in the rest of the 2 hours with artistic shots.

no.

i’m jealous. it truly was a good film. plus i got to watch it with my favourite movie dates. i lubtch you all many many. if only the damn couple next to us wasn’t eating sotong keropok. i hate it when people shit on my movie rainbow.

i spent my first graduated monday waking up to my dad at 8 am asking me if i had school. not exactly my ideal way of spending my first graduated monday. only 2 more days of rest though. sometimes i wonder why i was such a loser to work straight away. SFF shoot on thursday and friday then i officially start work as fluid’s bitch on the 1st. my first day of work is a saturday. ick.

 whatever. i’m going to watch a movie now and roll around my bed while i can. mum’s leaving for scotland on wednesday and she only returns on the 1st of APRIL. i’m not going to have a mummy for a month but oh my, there’s so much fun to be had. (if i have time in between being fluid’s slut).

i leave you with some pictures of the last day of school.. and a very guilty looking fizah

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right then… movie time!

school’s out!

Posted in Uncategorized on February 21, 2008 by kristylea

omg. i’m so incredibly happy. i feel like a huge weight is off my shoulders.

after masina exam, which was good considering i started studying the day before, had lunch with steve(n) chia and the tv journ lovelies. cake in the tv journ room was a pretty good way of ending the chapter of poly life, i reckon. and then met charity, dan, jj and liting (who was working… sort of) for a yummy dinner chocolate-ty dessert and usual chill out, talk cock session.

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ja-ja-jaimeeee

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le front two

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then they dropped us off along some road and pointed us in the wrong direction while they parked. so jj and i had a nice romatic scroll along the singapore river by sunset completely lost and literally going ’round the houses…

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our view

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but we eventually found our way since we are such smart, smart people. (shuddup dan)

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and we had a really good dinner with lovely rose. steaaaakk.

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our pretty waitress and wine recommender aka my spanish vacation partner.

goodbye poly life! can’t say i’ll miss you!

look what i stumbled across! CHIANG MAI VIDEO!

Posted in Uncategorized on February 18, 2008 by kristylea

suddenly i’m scared

Posted in Uncategorized on February 18, 2008 by kristylea

school’s out in 3 days and suddenly i’m scared.

scared that i’m not ready for the world.
scared that i’m not going to hack it.
scared that i’m going to lose contact with my friends.
scared that i’m too eager to work.
scared that i still need time to play. 
scared that i’m not going to be successful.
scared of being an adult for the first time in my life.
scared that i’m going after the wrong things.
scared that logic should over-power passion.
scared that my passion over-powers my logic instead.
scared that i’m not going to amount to anything i’m proud of.
scared that i’m going to look back and regret.
scared that i’m moving to a new country for the next couple of years.
scared that i’m going to be all alone.
scared that i’m going to screw it up.
scared that nothing is ever going to be familiar again from here on out.

a lot of people have told me i’m tough. i thought about it and realised that if they think so, a lot of people don’t know me at all.

can i stand still just a little while longer?

arrival and departure of g’ma

Posted in Uncategorized on February 16, 2008 by kristylea

i have my grandma back for a week! that makes me happy. she leaves for KL in a week. that makes me sad. then she comes back for a day. happy. then she flies off to aderdeen for a month. sad. then she comes back for 2 weeks. HAPPY. then she goes back to aussie land for a long long time again. SAAAADDD.

i love my g’ma forever and ever amen.

From Your Valentine…

Posted in Uncategorized on February 14, 2008 by kristylea

As early as the fourth century B.C., the Romans engaged in an annual young man’s rite of passage to the god Lupercus. The names of teenage women were placed in a box and drawn at random by adolescent men; thus, a man was assigned a woman companion, for their mutual entertainment and pleasure (often sexual), for the duration of a year, after which another lottery was staged. Determined to put an end to this eight-hundred-year-old practice, the early church fathers sought a “lovers” saint to replace the deity Lupercus. They found a likely candidate in Valentine, a bishop who had been martyred some two hundred years earlier.

In Rome in A.D. 270, Valentine had enraged the mad emperor the mad emperor Claudius II, who had issued an edict forbidding marriage. Claudius felt that married men made poor soldiers, because they were loath to leave their families for battle. The empire needed soldiers, so Claudius, never one to fear unpopularity, abolished marriage.

Valentine, bishop of Interamna, invited young lovers to come to him in secret, where he joined them in the sacrament of matrimony. Claudius learned of this “friend of lovers,” and had the bishop brought to the palace. The emperor, impressed with the young priest’s dignity and conviction, attempted to convert him to the Roman gods, to save him from otherwise certain execution. Valentine refused to renounce Christianity and imprudently attempted to convert the emperor. On February 24, 270, Valentine was clubbed, stoned, then beheaded.

History also claims that while Valentine was in prison awaiting execution, he fell in love with the blind daughter of the jailer, Asterius. Through his unswerving faith, he miraculously restored her sight. He signed a farewell message to her “From Your Valentine,” a phrase that would live long after its author died.

because i have the best boyfriends a girl could ask for

Posted in Uncategorized on February 12, 2008 by kristylea

Libra Horoscope for Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Why are you feeling fearful about losing someone or something you love? Worst case scenarios are clogging your thoughts and temporarily pulling down your mood. Be assured that things are on the mend. Maybe not in the way you planned but they are healing nonetheless.

acceptance letters and confusion

Posted in Uncategorized on February 9, 2008 by kristylea

looks like unis actually do want me. just waiting for answers from all of them. i don’t even know which one i’m going to pick, if there is even a choice at the end of the day. still have to submit my showreel for 2 of them. 

one thing’s for sure though. i can’t wait to get the hell out of mass comm. i’m so over it. sometimes i wonder how i didn’t get sick of IJ after 10 years but after just 3 years in mass comm, i’m absolutely ready to throw in the towel and walk away. i can’t explain it. and i know the there are so many people around me who feel the exact same way. we’ll keep each other and lose everything else.

meanwhile, i had a complete spaz out the other day and thank god for danial and fizzi and our seinfeld moments. one day, you’ll have to explain to me what i’m saying cos i make no sense to myself most of the time. but 10 thousand hugs to my very own jerry and george :D

oh, and clubbing cravings totally sorted last night. i feel normal again.

it’s a secret that no one tells
one day it’s heaven
one day it’s hell
and it’s no fairytale
take it from me
that’s the way it’s supposed to be

you will fly
and you will crawl
god knows even angels fall

i’m the CNY grinch

Posted in Uncategorized on February 7, 2008 by kristylea

i wish i discovered this song some time back.